What the hell?

Ok, so last October (2010) I had quadruple bypass surgery.  Last week (Feb 2011) was supposed to be my last week of cardiac rehab.  However, on Monday I felt that oh so familiar back pain while on the upright bike and two days later I was back in the hospital getting 6 stents placed in my two superclogged arteries.  Which leads me to the title of this post.  If I ever decide to write a book about my experience with heart disease it will be entitled, What the Hell?!!?  Because that's pretty much how I feel when some new tidbit of information about my own arteries comes to light.  No one told me that bypass grafts could fail so soon after surgery so when they did...what the hell?  No one thought a 45 year old woman could have the amount of blockage in her arteries that I have.  EVERYONE was saying, "What the hell?"  I think this is my equivalent of Oprah's "Ah hah" moments.  Mine are "what the hell" moments.